Responses & Reactions

Dear Reader,

When I was younger I imagined what I would do in certain situations. I thought of how I would handle myself if the worst came. I don’t have to imagine anymore, I know my response is all 3 - freeze, fight and flight.

Freeze, Fight, Flight

When you told me you were giving up on us,

I learned my first reaction was freeze.

I stood at the door unable to move until you started to leave,

that was when I discovered my second response was fight.

When I screamed and I cried but you told me we just weren’t right.

The next day I realised my third reaction was flight,

as I hopped on a plane in the middle of the night.

And now it’s winter but I am no longer frozen.

And now I know my worth, I don’t want to fight.

And now I’m not running away but I’m still catching flights.

And now I don’t love you like I did that night.

All my love,

Kaila 💌